Learn

I learn too much,
Too much that i cant believe myself,
I am happy now!!!

i never knew that i can be someone better...

MIsses

I should stop passing by your house,
but i cant.

I should stop slowing down at AYE for chocolate smell
but i cant.

I should stop missing you,
but i cant

i should stop loving you,
but i cant

i should stop doing all this
but i cant....

Gotta to carry on with my life

Guess i am going to collect my stuff
very very very soon...
I had to face the music...

Gotta control my emotion,
Gotta control and not let my emotion take over me!!!

Think of you

The first image that came to me when i am inches from death,
is you...!!!

i dont know why?
but, i know that i must do something,
to prevent myself form crashing...

10 days since break up,
i still cant put my self to go your hse to collect me stuff,
our memories....
what if you are at home?
i will feel awkward,
but do anyone care??

haiz, i miss you!!!

Chocolate in the air

Chocolate in the air,
but there is no one as my pillion,
I smell deeply,
and wait for someone to tell me i love you too!!

no one, no one, no one, no one....

i said i love you, hope that you can feel it!!

i cant

i know that i cant forget her,
i know that she cant forgive me.

but she really wake up my ideal,
but it too late late late...
you are right!
you had given me 2 years to talk to you,
but all i did is sleep.

i will not hide my feeling,
i still love her,
i miss her.

Alright i am hurt again,
despite things you have say without thinking,
Despite things you had done,
i still love you...

Why are we making conclusion?
we need to sit down and talk,
we need to really know what is going on!
i never spread words around,
why is there a need for me to spread?
what did i get from all this?
I get nothing!!!!
Then why do i bother to spread?

a familiar way

On my way to mandai,
for my Fire Fighting Training,
The cold cold SLE,
where forest emit out their breath,
The morning dew cover the whole road,
The orange jacket that keep me warm,
still keep me warm...
like it does 1 year ago,
the love inside it never perish

a familiar road,
but a unfamiliar feeling,
The bike is lighter,
Your hand is not wrapping my trunk anymore,
The tickle....
is no longer there...
i long for you to be with me on the same bike,
where we went out for the first time....
the first kiss where we had at fort canning,
the first chat when we are at CCAC,
The first hug when we are at the stair case when you are applying mopiko....

Where are you！！！
i am shouting your name every where i go.....
Where are you!!!
My heart is waiting for you....
Where are you!!!
My eyes wanna to see you...
Where are you!!!!
My hand need you...
Where are you!!!!
i LOVE　ＹＯＵ

Coffee Bean

5 day morning

i am sitting on the chair,
drinking our white chocolate dream,
but the other chair is so empty,
White chocolate isn't as tasty as it is anymore,
it bitter without you,
ECP dont look colourful anymore
it dull , people here is all heart broken,
song play at coffee bean express all the feeling i am now.

rode past your house,
i can feel your present,
it better that i dont go up,
frustrations is wondering in your body,
if i go up only trigger and outburst it atom to molecule
you need time to chill,
i know that....

i hope that it becasue of frustrations that make you dont fall for me,
i hope frustrations will go off and you realise you still love me.
frustrations cover love. love will surface.. i know and i believe it.

wei qu
if wei qu yourself just to see your love one happy
i rather wei qu myself then seeing you like this.

flip flip flip flip flip

every time i think of you,
i pick up my handphone
wanted to sms or call you
at the end,
i light a stick, to smoke my sorrow and tears away
(i know that you hate people who smoke, i am sorry)


Should i message you?
Flip
Tail
Should i message you?
Flip
Again Tail
Should i message you?
Flip Again Tail

Head message
Tail NO

Do she still love me?
Flip
Head

Head yes

i dont know what am i doing anymore,
i wanted to message you so badly,
i want to hear your voice so badly
want to know are you feeling better.

i want to give you moon again,
i want to bring you up to the star again
i want to bring you to my fav places
i want to talk to you,
i want i want i want....

i am totally shit,
i really hate myself for reading your msn history
why couldn't i trust you more?
I should not let my emotion control me,
control my trust toward you,
i am being too ridiculous .

Read your blog, you are drunk,
the tump tump heart beat of yours weaken my feet
the spining of your broke my heart,
don't drink too much next time....

i miss you...
i love you....

missing you

Sleepy you are no longer laying on bed sleeping, daddy is sorry.


day 4 afternoon

I want to hold your hand,
write I love you on your palm.

I want you ride you through AYE pioneer north exit,
So that you can smell the chocolate smell that represent our I love YOU.
i sms you, but the recipient is dan,
i rode past NUS by AYE, wanted to take my exit to clementi,
before i wanted to exit, your angry face surface to my head,
i continue my journey to tuas.
my heart hurt to see you angry and cry!!!


i wanted to see you so badly,
but, will you want to see me?
will you miss me?

i weight myself again this morning before i came to work,
68 kg,
i didnt know that i really can lose 10 kg in 4 days,
if you know, what will you do?
will you scold me or would you dont even care...

my blog is having quite a lot of hits,
i am wondering are you reading my blog，
i love you
i miss you
i miss you calling me darling,
i miss you calling pi gu
i want to post on my passiononearth so much!!!
cause you will be able to read it,
understand and know i am still loving you,
instead of guessing that i had give up..
NO i haven GIVE UP

If i were given a chance again,
i will
Bring you out for bball, badminton, swim, blade, skate, dive　ｍｏｒｅ　ｏｆｔｅｎ，
ｉ　ｗｉｌｌ　ｔａｌｋ　ｔｏ　ｙｏｕ，ａｎｄ　ｋｎｏｗ　ｅｖｅｒｙｐａｒｔ　ｏｆ　ｙｏｕ，　ｔｈａｔ　ｍａｋｅ　ｙｏｕ．
ｉ　ｗｉｌｌ　ｌｉｓｔｅｎ　ｔｏ　ｙｏｕ　ｗｈｅｎ　ｗｅ　ｑｕａｒｒｅｌ，　ｈａｐｐｙ　ｏｒ　ｓａｄ．
ｉ　ｗｉｌｌ　ｒｅｆｒａｉｎ　ｏｆ　ｕｓｉｎｇ　ＢＵＴ　ＢＵＴ　ＢＵＴ，
ｉ　ｗｉｌｌ　ｎｏｔ　ａｒｇｕｅ　ｗｉｔｈ　ｙｏｕ，　ａｎｄ　ａｃｃｅｐｔ　ｉｔ　ｍｙ　ｆａｕｌｔ．
I will think how to use my money wisely!!!
I　Ｎｅｅｄ　ＹＯＵ！！！



你对我说要分手
那天长地久 曾经的温柔
全被你带走
想起当初你说永远爱我
这一生陪我度过
到最后留给我这个结果
我该说什么
为何你对我许下了承诺
以为我会是你唯一寄托
千斤重的回忆把我压着
失去了你什么是生活

:(

Just came back after meeting them
jac,mel,dan,jovan and shi jie

went over to far east,
i get lost again, haha, nthing new about it.

4day morning
after that went over to party world at "cant remember where le"
but, i didnt really enjoy myself,
i am lost,
there are so many memories when i am singing,
every sentences either saying my feeling now or things that you had told me,
i keep on looking at your photo inside my handphone,
so wish that you will sent me a message,
telling me good night, telling me to find you at our love bridge,
playing chess with zhou gong!!!
ｔｅｌｌｉｎｇ　ｍｅ　ｔｈａｔ　ｙｏｕ　ａｒｅ　ｓｔｉｌｌ　ｈｏｌｄｉｎｇ　ｏｎ．


i really dunno, i only know that i miss you,
missing you , i want to see you. it 4 day le.....
i am craving to chat with you, disturb you, pamper you, doting you and loving you.

haiz!!!!!
i don't know how to express my feeling,
i can only say i love you... pei lee!!!! my baby!!!

Hurt day 3 8 kg lost in total

I am just so loved by my group of si dang
Chat with dan for almost 1 hrs plus and suddenly ask me which blog i stay,
wow!!! she had been driving all the way down from woodland,
i am so so so touch,
chat with her about my problem, then here came jac and Zm,
when they arrive , dan aid hello and wave to them,
i am like, WTH, you know people from my block?
shock, love touch.....
they reach at 3am......

as i say
when everything seems so wrong, there is something right
i am bless, very bless!!!

day 3
after listening to dan dan, i finally listen to someone,
if you are really happen to read this blog,
i am sorry!!! it not that i dont want to blog in my original blog,
you need time to heal, so i type all my crab feeling all here.
where there is a chance that we are together again,
i will show you, read it with you..... this i promise you.
I am refreshing on your blog again again and again,
not to help you get your hit,
but hungry for you news,
wanting to know how you feel
wanting to know what have you been doing lately,
guess, we are back to where we start.
looking at each other blog, crying for each other, worrying for each other.
encouraging each other.

went over for navy sprint at east coast park,
saw someone who look like you from the back,
my heart skip a beat, in that split moment,
i am thinking should i hid myself, or should i walk faster to check is that you,
i am crazy about you, there is so so so many people,
but, this girl with a similar back of yours hide all color in the surrounding,
the only color and person i can see you her.

i started to regain back to reality,
you should be sleeping now,
there is no way that person is you,
reality came sooner then i expected,
she turn, it not you,
i sigh, put my eyes back to the performance,
mind still thinking of you,
then time when we went jogging at ECP,
The time when we had my fav WCD
The time when we sit at the water breaker, fishing happily,
The time when we cycle....
There is so many many flash back,
my heart hurt so so so much!!!

i dont know what to do,
i am still feeling very lost,
i am still stuck at the time when you leave me,
the time when you chase me off away from you,
the time when you offer me a melon drink and i quarrel with you at your test week.
i really regret, regret things that i had done.
there is so much things that i can do when i am with you,
but i choose not to, really take everything for granted,
now you had leave me, i started to know things that you say,
thing that when i do will make you feel angry and sianz
like knocking my teeth when eating, i finally had a chance to hear that and that is really irritating.

i miss you,
i love you.